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Monday, June 23, 2008

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 02:26:58 GMT

Sorrow by ~karasu-san on deviant ART

i feel....overwhelming sorrow

Monday, January 14, 2008

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 02:50:20 GMT

Why does it always turn out like this? The growing resentment...the ad hominem, fights. All of this, and yet they always turn out to be right. What, then is the point of arguing? I mean, in the end, they are our parents, and they do care about us in the long run. Still, I cannot help but desperately fight for that gulp of fresh air, freedom.

And yet, it still seems like I'm deceiving them; through logic, ethics and emotion. Sure my arguement wins in the end, but at what cost? Is it worth it, this rebellion, this sadness... the continued separation? It makes me wonder about politics. Did George III really not care for the welfare of the colonies, or did they just exaggerate it as we would about our parents? Are political rebellions really that noble..or were they only started just like how we start fights against our parents. Out of spite, out of rebellious nature...So many questions to ask..why can't we just all get along? Why is it that even though I know I am probably wrong, I still argue, still fight with such rebelliousness? I want to submit, and yet at the same time, I want to fight on, to dominate. A man cannot serve two masters, he must either love one and hate the other or vice versa. I do not want to live this lie anymore. I want to reform, to change, to wholly conform to one and purge myself of the other. But who can I give up? Blood is thicker than water, yes, but doesn't love conquer all?

I guess in the end, I only want one thing.. I don't want love, I don't want friendship, I don't want truth. I want wholeness. Give me something, but give me only that. Nothing else. I want to be wholly consumed by one thing, not ambivalence. Devour me in either black or white, I care not. But give me grey and I will wither. I'm withering... I need to end this now, before both halves destroy each other. I need to kill one half, and submit.

Alas, why does all of this sound so cliche? so angsy.. and so typical a xanga rant? *sigh* in the end, i'm still nothing more than a confused delusional child

Friday, August 17, 2007

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 00:07:41 GMT

...//{xanga hiatus}//...
sorry kiddos

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 00:19:49 GMT

vanilla

14 up, 18 down

Nature's favorite form of torture. It smells wonderful, but tastes FUCKING AWFUL by itself. This means you experience and desire great tastes, but don't actually get to satisfy your want. Quench your need. Make you happy. Oh no, you can only smell and wish.

(While some coffee is like this in the fact that it smells better than it tastes, vanilla smells better than any coffee I've ever smelled. Vanilla > You.)

It's also the most common ice cream flavor.

*Man first discovered vanilla*

Hmmm... this smell good. *drinks* ... *spits out* MAN, THIS TASTE LIKE SHIT!

Why, WHY does this odor torture me so?
The scent fills my nose with wonderful thoughts... yet my mouth lacks the same feeling. *cries*

lolzlolzlolz

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 01:32:14 GMT

mmm.. life can be pretty interesting, no?

Fear The IAGO!!!

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 01:39:58 GMT

Iago’s murder of Emilia could also stem from the general hatred of women that he displays. Some readers have suggested that Iago’s true, underlying motive for persecuting Othello is his homosexual love for the general. He certainly seems to take great pleasure in preventing Othello from enjoying marital happiness, and he expresses his love for Othello frequently and effusively."

--- from sparknotes

Interesting, no?

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Thu, 12 Apr 2007 22:33:56 GMT

lol. that old dude in the beginning is pretty awesome XD

Monday, April 09, 2007

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 21:17:02 GMT

What barbie are you?(pics\ REALLY FUNNY)

Goth Barbie
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fun....

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Sat, 31 Mar 2007 20:38:49 GMT

haha XD

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 01:35:35 GMT

:O i actually decorated my cell! ^_________^